Human Impression

unbelievable!!!!!!

This is just one of the most amazing things I have ever viewed!

The animal's joy is evident that he loves them as much as they love him.

Truly shows the love an animal can hold within its heart.

He could have made chopped meat out of them but instead he acted like a big pussy cat. (meow)

I have been studying and trying to read cat's face expression ( joking la hahahaha)

take a look at this picture below:


is'nt he adorable???? huhu.so innocent.

I feel like I want to give a pinch on his face.(gigitan ku bnr)

Human impression on cats in blue house :

1. kiuttttttt !!!! -->saadiah

2.usulnya ah !! -->Farhan aka spartan

3.oi! kmari ko !!!!!! --> nazmi calling jaz

4.eh! tdo tia !! --> Fariz

5.come come ! -->fatma

6. *UnKnown* --> haz O_O

blue house members(2008,1 sem break)
mana sadiah? MIA (Missing In Action)
Fariz just where are u looking at? hahaha (>_<)

Siblings

After more than 8 hours of flight from Australia i finally met up my brothers and sister here.

I miss them alot.
Everyone looks amazing.

Espeacially,

my youngest brother khairul (The Muscle man, Hobby: drink milk,Alene, Status: single.muahaha)

Phone call.

On the 23rd of June,

sunrise~sunset~

Everyday seem to be the same for me until

I received a phone call from my younger sister informing me that i have been

accepted to UPM (University Putra Malaysia)

taking

“Bachelor of Veterinary Doctor Medicine.”

“Bachelor of Veterinary Doctor Medicine.”

“Bachelor of Veterinary Doctor Medicine.”

“Bachelor of Veterinary Doctor Medicine.”

“Bachelor of Veterinary Doctor Medicine.”

Ahhhhh??

Still blur.

6 Months ago! (flash back) ba~zoom~

I was devasted when UQ turn down my application on Vet.(meyamal ku nyamu)

I wanted to be Vet since i was little and Its been my dream to be a vet.

Now that dream simply vanised into thin air.(mcm batu jdi pasir )

“cuba tah ko antar borang a2 ke upm mana tau kna accept” mama ku ckp

“au ,ma” aku ckp.

Translation in english (speaking kapal) :

“You try to summit your application to upm who knows they will accept you”

my mum suggested.

“Yes ma” i answered bluntly.

I neverthought that my application will ever reach to UPM and expecting the same

reply as UQ does.

After 6 months (back to the future) ba~zoom~

Received a letter from UPM:

Mr.....

Bla bla bla your application to UPM bla bla bla succesfull bla bla offer bla bla course

“Bachelor of Veterinary Doctor Medicine” ~

“Bachelor of Veterinary Doctor Medicine.”~

“Bachelor of Veterinary Doctor Medicine.”~

“Bachelor of Veterinary Doctor Medicine.”~

Wait.

Is this a dream ?-->nope its reality (good..)

Wait

or some kind of prank ??

--> nope no hidden cam detected, no paparazi (phew)

Ahhhhhhh?

Twinkle twinkle little star~

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God has anwered my prayer!!

This is my chance

My ony chance to fulfil my dream as vet.

~Cry cry cry ~

T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T

still cryin~

Before 23^th June

I gazed upon the sky .

It was cloudy today and moreover its chilling cold these days as winter is

arriving soon.( Freezing (n_n) siuk~ )

I was completely de-"motivated" when I get to know that my ielts result is not that

sufficient to meet the UQ's English requirement (for the 4th time, stupid x_X) and

everything is out of hand when I found out that my exams are coming soon than I

less expected it to be.

One word that keeps on echo’ing in my ear :

~STRESS~ STRESS~STRESS~STRESS~~

~STRESS~ STRESS~STRESS~STRESS~~

~STRESS~ STRESS~STRESS~STRESS~~

At night,

I cant sleep very well as if Im having some kind of insomnia.

Hrmmm. I forget how to sleep la (0_0)

May be,

because i keep on thinking about my EXAMS

~YAWN~

Having irregular sleep pattern appears to effect my daily activities.

When I wake up late (Z_Z)

I feel so weak as I skip my breakfast even my lauch

(#_#) ~Alert low sugar level detected!!

Even skinnier than usual. Hahaha! (Skinny~)

Well,

I can say that Im in the state of chaos with my overgrown mustache and beard (kusut usulnya) rather look more mature in a way. (muahaha)

At this moment,

Everything is confusing for me

I feel like every living creatures around me will turn to vain by my presence.

But Still I CANT GIVE UP NOW.

Especially for “HER”. (From the beginning until now ^_^)

~(Being sentimental now)~

Ohhh~

Staring at you from a distant

You soften my heart yet again ( case ang’gau) .

I may not be a noticable person

may be because im a shy person.

Thats the reason why you don’t acknowledge my presence

As time pass by,

yet you’re still far away

Far~ Far~ away in a place that I cant reach

I didnt realise it until this moment that admiring one is so hard like this.

Eventhough I may not be able to see your sweet smile on your adorable face

everyday.

Will I ever get to meet you again ?

May be some day,

I guess.

The day that I will be able attract your attention.

Mcm The flower and the bee.

(the beauty and the beast,...i know its lame...(-_-!) )

who am I?

I have become myself through the instrumentality of the links between me and others

The interaction with people and the flow of time change the shape of my mind.

Those bonds have formed me so far. The thing known as myself and that person will form me from now on but there is someone else who which is the true me.

I don’t know myself

Because I don’t want to see myself that I’m running way.

Because of fear i might have a human shape

Because the present me, I might be disappear.

One is afraid that the self will disappear.

Ive never understand myself

for i keep on blaming myself for whats happning all around me

its like there's something avoiding me

its always there,

empty and i feel like im made frm a straw

I remember being afraid of it

i wonder when i started the drifting

its like m mind and body have come apart little by little

when ever something sad or painful happens,

its like there's another me who watches it,

as if it's happening to someone else thinking tat 's not me

Ill lock my heart away deeper

i wouldnt have to feel the pain outside or inside or the fear of being alone ,

i wouldnt hve to feel anyting at all

there i will be safe,untouch and undisturb

The good old days

Today the weather was OK.
I can see the sunrise through my window as I woke up this morning.
I had a hard time going to sleep these days because my exams are getting closer as each day passes by.
My exams will be on the 11, 12, 19 and finally 20.

On the 22 i will be going to KL paying a visit to my siblings during this semester break.
its been awhile since i have last seen them especially my brother.

Oh my god the last time Ive seen my brother was in 2006 (amazing how time flies)
I really cant wait in seeing their faces and being surrounded with the family aura.

I have been feeling nostalgic lately especially my school life back in Brunei.
I really enjoyed it especially wearing school uniform, hanging out and making a fool of ourselves after class.

I wonder how they are doing now? hopefully their doing well right now.
After the "A" levels, everyone went to their separate ways including myself.
well thats life and i do still keep in touch with them.

I have been thinking lately about wearing my school uniform next semester (may be)
or for special events (hehe)



A video of us having fun after class. (hahahahha we were bored)
here some pictures of me during A level years in Brunei.

---->Fire in the hole!!!! ( Im the one wearing the helmet












--> damn i look smart. (muahaha)














---> eventhough you are a respectful person in school sometimes you still get disrespect from other.











--> sleeping during chemistry class. That was Azrul's leg.hahahaha.












--->behind the school library where i like to spend my time after class.

*Yawn*

It rained the whole day today and it was hard for me to wake from my deep slumber.
it felt like i was being glued to my bed.

It was a pleasant dream especially when I dreamt about "HER".
It felt like as if I'm the protagonist from a romantic Korean movie just like the one from "A moment to remember"( refer to the picture below)
or may be "Winter sonata" ---> oh so sentimental~la
Everything was ok then, until Nazmi (my housemate) had to pull me back to boring reality.




















heizzzzzzz! Geram nya akuu!

however it was good of him to wake me up, for we had to go to the city for the 1st BSS (20008/9) official meeting. it felt nice seeing some new fresh faces.

After the meeting we headed to Alan's music shop. played the Grand piano which sounds totally different (better actually) when compared to my own back home.

yea~
We checked out the electronic drum and found out that it was interesting.
Farhan played like a wannabe drummer (parasan bnr,ahahahha).

back home Farhan, Nazmi and myself decided to chip in to buy our own drum set.
we found one from ebay which cost around $300 (a2 mahal eh) which looks like this :
















not too bad for a beginner....but i wish it was the electronic drum which would rather be convenient since there wouldn't be anymore spaces left in the house for this huge thing.